Prayer Eureka (may they be plentiful)

At church on Sunday, just as the worship band started up on the first song, I had a miniature prayer epiphany. I was just voicing (veerrrry quietly) how merciful God is, and how He keeps forgiving and loving me even though I am a constant disappointment. Next thing you know, freaking "Eureka." Some background, if I may. Ever since God gave me the head's up that my psychological rejection-based issues are not in His plans for me, I've been frustrated over how I'm supposed to respond to that. I mean, I get it, I'm in control of my own responses, and therefore I need to have a godly, loving response to pretty much anything people throw at me, but come on. People trample all over the remnants of my heart and self-esteem and the first words out of my mouth should be, "Oh, that felt awesome, do it some more!"? I'm thinking no. God, on the other hand, is thinking something along the lines of "get over it." Not quite so harshly, I'm sure, but you get my meaning. Here was my line of reasoning (have you ever realized how quickly your brain works sometimes? you think an entire paragraph and it's only been five seconds): I'm a Christian, and I am supposed to be like Christ. Hence the name--Christian=little Christ. Christ is God, what with that whole 3-in-1 Trinity business He/They have going on. Since I'm supposed to be like Christ, I'm pretty much also supposed to be like God. God keeps welcoming me back, forgiving me, and loving me despite the countless times that I've disappointed Him, hurt Him, and rejected Him. Therefore, I should keep forgiving people and loving people no matter how many times they disappoint, hurt, and reject me. I should always be willing to welcome them back. Well, it took me long enough, eh? It seems to me that this was another one of those cases where I knew about this forgiveness business but didn't really know it in the sense that I was putting it into active practice in my life. Not that I'm saying I'll be able to just get over everything right.this.second, but at least now I feel as though I've got a User's Guide to Godly Feelings, or some such business.